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[wolffyluna]

I've been playing some more of my Dark Urge run in Baldur's Gate 3!

Look at himmmmm, he should be threatened with knives all the time.

Anyway, more rambles under the cut:

I finally managed to find Abdirak (priest of the goddess of pain, will hit you with a mace repeatedly for a buff), after my failure in my first play through. I even redid a fight purely so I could do the Abdirak scene. Two things:

• the dark urge specific dialogue lines are so good (Dark Urge: "I feel like I like raw pain too much." Abdirak: "Forgive me, but that look in your eyes-- something terrible has happened to you.")
• so, you get to pick how to react to being hit? And all the youtubers pick the 'tough' responses and not the "performatively scream and beg for mercy." And. If you'll excuse me being the person I am. The poorly negotiated cnc pain play is so much more fun

Fun dynamic Hymn and Wyll can have: Hymn does not trust his instincts around who to kill, but he does feel that some people should be killed. This is a little bit rationalisation-- you are going to justify the thing that makes you not be in pain all the time-- and a little bit "he lives in a dnd world, some people do deserve to die."(edited)

But he does trust Wyll's instincts. He's good and heroic and never murdered anyone on accident*! And so he looks to Wyll to check,

Which is. A bit weird for Wyll when he realises the party's paladin is looking at him like a bloodstained terrier with a rat in its mouth going "did I do good? "

I am rotating writing about Hymn for disabled h/c month, though I-- hmmm. I don't feel weird about writing Shadowheart or Karlach through the lens of disability, even if their problems are very supernatural in origin. I do feel weird about applying a disability lens to "in pain and nauseous all the time (unless you are murdering people, because Bhaal is like that)" and I'm… not sure if that is correct or reasonable?