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First day of semester today! The first day of my last semester as a normal undergraduate. Which is a weird feeling.

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Also the first day of Black Emporium Exchange nominations! I'm not sure if I'm going to participate this year, but I probably will. I've fallen a bit out of Dragon Age... but that's mostly because it's been awhile since the last Black Emporium, so. I'd have to do some character voice revision, but it's doable. Also it'll give me something to do as a break from the incoming Love Not Wisdom edits.

Love Not Wisdom is ticking along okay. I got stuck for a bit, but managed to unstick myself when I remembered that most of the time when I'm stuck, it's because I need the outline to be more detailed. I'm getting close to the end. There's probably only 5-6 scenes to go, before the first draft is done, but some of those scenes will be Long.

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I have survived the first day of second semester. Which was surprisingly exhausting and bruising.

When I tried to describe why, I at first said it was because of imposter syndrome, which isn't quite right and got me encouragement of the form of 'But you're so smart, and not an imposter.'

It finally hit me that a) my choices for major etc were locked in now and b) I'm behind. Not in a way that I can't catch up-- but that does require me catching up. Which isn't a thing I'm looking forward to. (I actually got chased down by one of the lecturers after class to ask what subject I had taken, because he didn't recognise me, and when he found out I hadn't taken Magmatism and Metamorphism^†, he let me know I was a little behind. In a way that I could catch up by reading a relevant textbook chapter, but still. And I have to notice I'm behind quickly.)

Also these classes involve a lot of reading. Which I'm not, like, thrilled by. Because now it's another thing to juggle outside of class. And they expect us to hit the ground running with that as well. (I have like, 6 chapters I need to read for one class, and while I appreciate they've cancelled some lectures to give us time to read that, that's still a lot.)

So I've done a lot today, from emailing people about a lit review, to starting the reading, to fighting Matlab licenses to the death. I even managed to write 1k words of recreational writing.

...and now I'm exhausted.

(And unnecessary geology fun fact: geology also uses the word 'epigenetic' and it is messing with my brain. If a syngenetic ore formed at the same time as it's host rock, and an epigenetic ore formed after it's host rock formed.)

^† I'm particularly kicking myself over that, because I wanted to take that class last semester. I even could have, despite planning to do chem! But noooo, I decided to be ~sensible~ and didn't take it, and now it's kicking me in the arse a bit!