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[wolffyluna]

I've just finished the first draft of Love Not Wisdom, my Túrin/Beleg-- at one point it was a pining fic, but I have no clue what it is now. A meditation on the dangers of love, or something like that? But I've finished the first draft of it.

It's sitting at 27.6k words. And that's without definitely missing at least two scenes. Which makes it my longest fanfiction by 6k words*. And it's not done yet.

I'll admit I didn't expect to hit the end of the first draft so quickly. I'm not quite sure what to do with myself.

*Not my longest work of fiction. My deeply embarassing novel that I still hold deep affection for that I wrote in 2014 is longer. But I'm pretty sure that even now as a first draft, Love Not Wisdom is better.

Comments

[yvannairie]

Ah yes, the feeling of knowing your old works are kinda trash, so you develop a taste for the kind of trash they are :D

Sounds amazing, tbh. Stories that need stuff added in can work out just fine, sometimes emotional continuity doesn't quite work out how we intend and in that instance adding the necessary context in is the best you can do.

[wolffyluna]

Yeah. Deeply Embarassing Novel is technically fixable... it'd be a lot of effort to fix.

One of the missing scenes is the end-- I outlined one version with what I thought the themes of the story were at the time, but that ended up changing. And I think it'd make more sense to work out what the actual themes are, before writing an end that's meant to be the culmination of them. (The other missing scenes were "I got so focused on making sure the physical consequences of the canonical torture were accurate I clean forgot about the psychological ones, and should fix that.")

[chocochipbiscuit]

Congrats on finishing the first draft! The roughest part of the process, except for all the revisions that come after. :p (I kid, I kid.)

I do the same thing with my first drafts, reviewing them for themes and re-outlining as necessary. It's nice to see I'm not the only one who discovers that the intended theme changes over time!

[wolffyluna]

About halfway through the first draft, I realised the theme was drifting-- and about three quarters of the way through, I stopped fighting it :P. It came to a point where I realised the main character constantly going "I don't actually care if [Other Character] loves me back, I care that I can help them" was, like, true, and that our main character's problem is way less "Does [Other Character] like him back?" and way more "Uh, maybe you should stop setting yourself on fire to keep him warm? Maybe?"